College is Worthless. Don't Do It.

I intentionally slept through the first hour of church since it's at 9am and the first hour is Relief Society, which I absolutely can't stand. I have not a doubt in my mind that the Gospel is true and perfect, my friends, but oh my my the people (including myself) certainly are not. And some of those women drive me crazy. Anyway, I didn't reset my alarm because I didn't think I needed to. Apparently I did need to, because I slept in way too late. Which sucks because as much as I publicly exaggerate my complaints about the few extreme crazy girls and guys in my church, that doesn't mean I don't need me some good worship time every Sunday. Because I really really do. Now more than ever, I think.

I'm sick and tired of applying to jobs every single week, and only getting rejection emails every single week. I even had an employer get ahold of my resume and personally request that I officially apply to the job. This job had nothing to do with what I studied, and would have required a move to Wisconsin which I was totally ok with. But it was a job that was not in the food industry, and something that would be worth my while on a resume. So I officially sent in the exact same resume that prompted the recruitment in the first place, and a week later I received a rejection email. Really, it's not the fact that I didn't get this particular job that was so upsetting for me. It's the fact that it was the SAME resume that prompted them to contact me in the first place. So ummm WHAT????

So. I'm done. I'm not applying to jobs anymore for some time. I emotionally can't handle the let-down anymore. For the past couple of years I sort of hardened up and became incapable of crying over anything (kind of like Cameron Diaz in that really stupid waste of 2 hours of your time movie "The Holiday). But lately, I'm overwhelmingly emotional and the littlest things make me cry. When a guy is a douchebag to Mary, it makes me cry. She didn't cry. I did. What the heck?? I really think it's the emotional rollarcoaster that job-searching has put me through. In December, it'll have been a year since I graduated college. Which was apparently worthless, a waste of time, and put me debt that I'm scared I'll never be able to crawl out of. It's not even that much, especially compared to other students from other colleges. But with a job that earns as little as do, it's all I can to do to survive.

The only thing my college degree was apparently good for was new friends,amazing memories, and a bit of awesome traveling.

But let's face it. I didn't need a college degree to acquire such experiences. That stupid piece of paper is worthless. Absolutely worthless. I'm so angry. I want to let out a blood-curdling scream every single time I put on my stupid work uniform that makes me look like an ugly little man.

I was really optimistic for a long time. But it's too hard to stay positive when it's inevitable that this isn't going to change.